The FA perspective Vol 2: Impasse
IMPASSE
As I sit on the computer tonight like every other night, reading about various events and people throughout history, I think about the last few days that have transpired and I realize that I’m at an impasse. Yes ladies, the same impasse you come to when you realize how big a d**k can REALLY get on it’s own. Not the “I’m this big and that big” but true numbers, and shortly after you realize that the percentage of those numbers come in less than adequate for most of you all. Yes gentlemen the same impasse you come to when you realize, that while yes…pu**y is good, it is not all that different from gal to gal but thank god for head because boy I tell you I know a gal that I swear she’s an anaconda (no name’s needed). As I meet different guys and different girls everything begins to blur, from the real world to the land of internet…I mean recently as intelligent as I am I just found out that individuals can have “their world” with “their set of rules”….*sigh* boy that must be nice. I remember when I first made myspace I figured I could meet new people, promote my career and keep people updated, and keep in touch with old friends and any new friends I made…how foolish I was. Slowly I began to see that the popularity contest of the outside world had infected my online lil haven as people would add you as an extra number but never speak. Ignorance of the streets seeped in as gals would place their kids in pics with “stunna shades” on and throwing up gang signs and girls would talk about other women kissing their men but tasting them and what other bi**hes don’t have on them etc. The fake pimps, playas, and hustlas seeped in to create the new “cyber pimp”. The hoes seeped in with their numerous half naked, seducing captioned pics that lure in the guys like flys to s**t. Even later I realized that promoting my career on here is next to worthless as, like anything else, not to many people are even really interested in what someone does but what they have. Yes you have your true fans of a sport who are true fans of particular athletes but they are far outnumbered by the one’s who are fans of the fact that the athlete is on tv or making this much and that much or that he is the “in” thing at the time…outnumbered as much as cats and dogs are by fleas and ticks….and im jus a lil star not a superstar so I probably don’t even have to many of the real fans yet. Reading some headlines I even realized that the weak minded, can’t take fault for my own actions, that results in so many kids joining gangs, failed relationships, and all these ninjas and bi**hes ending up 45 and alone has seeped into myspace when I read headlines like “I’m a player by birth not by choice” and “every girl that’s a bi**h is because there was a man that made her that way”. As I sit and think about everything I feel like Santana at woodstock on his guitar, on LSD, believing he was holding a snake while watching the colors and clouds pass him by in a blur. Most every girl I meet all seem to be under the delusion that they have found the fountain of youth and that their looks will bring them the riches and all their wants for all of eternity, and all the guys feed those delusions by buying them cars, houses, jewelry, drinks, free entry to clubs, etc….society isn’t building women…it’s destroying the very foundation and morals and ethics needed to build women. To me it all seems to be the SAME f**king girl in a different body but I keep hearing the same old s**t over and over it seems…just like every guy thinks he’s the pimp Treshaun Sparks or Fillmoe Slim or they are a blood, crip, or whatever else is red or blue….so if you get shot and you bleed in blue jeans what would that make you? I remember reading about how back in the days everyone had a “trade” or a talent…something they were good at, and women not being able to cook was unheard of. I also remember an Asian philosopher saying how men’s energy over time was becoming more like a woman’s and woman’s more like a man’s….I would shake his hand if he was alive nowadays. Most men don’t have a trade nowadays, and most women can’t cook. Most men not only not have a trade but lack ambition to do anything with themselves and mooch offa gals, and most gals have no ambition to do anything that requires more than the batting of eyelashes, clevage showing, lipgloss, and a short skirt……somewhere along the way I just lost interest and amusement in it all. I wonder does anyone look at themselves in the mirror anymore or just the images behind it? does anyone listen to what others say…do they even listen to themselves?! I know a gal who sat and told me everything she hated in other females only to end up doing all those same things, and yes, she somehow had a reason for it all. I know a female who got everything done for her that would be on almost every gals top 10 list…yet wasn’t satisfied because her list wasn’t top 11. I know a gal who talks and talks about everything she would like someone to do for her and not do to her…and she does all those things to others and yes, somehow has a reason for it. I know a gal who is a good gal, but has the mindset of a guy, thus doesn’t have a guy…and I also know a gal who really was a woman, and really did get ruined by a guy. N ladies I men, men, men I know…where are they right? the male sex has went so downhill that people don’t even fight with fist anymore and are relegated to basing their toughness on how big their gun is, how many bullets they have, how many friends “got their back”, and how fast they can type and how big their vocab is as they do the whole “internet thug” and “phone thug” act. Are muscles even real anymore? back in the days strength….REAL strength defined a man right? so with all this GH and steroids and other s**t that builds fake strength, doesn’t that make the ninja fake from the get go? and when did the male sex forget how to court women beside being flashy with money and objects…im not sure who’s fault it is for this constant flow of hoe-ism..ours or the females…ours for offering the objects and money for pu**y or the gals for taking it and giving the money and pu**y…well we know imma blame the females because “women are the backbones of men” right? so if were the prototypes then women are SUPPOSED to be better, but somehow they have taken all the games guys played and made them worse. Men played games thinking they were birds so to speak. Birds look down upon other animals because they are in the sky, but don’t realize that they have to land to eat, drink, and sleep. Women took that and became a different animal…snakes. Snakes have no legs and keep their bellies right to the Earth and can see angles other taller animals can’t, thus, playing the game from a smoother more meticulous side. Everything is backword when you can be in certain areas and the f**kin Raiders colors can get you killed, when you say “Hi how are you doing?” and a gal passes you by but you say “Fuck you then b**ch” and a convo gets started. I’ve been wondering should I sit on my a** and just be lazy as well, seems to get you ahead in life somehow. Nothing is defined by what you know anymore but who you know…and if everything is defined by who you know then you can be the best at your practice and nothing every come from it because you don’t know the right person…so should motivation be in becoming the best at something or by meeting tons of people? and if things are the way they are then we are forced to meet more people and be of lesser quality in our work…….anyone reading this NOT an idiot can see where that will lead to eventually from an overall social standpoint. Speaking of backwards…damn I’ve lost my thoughts as I freestyle all my blogs..hmmmm…maybe It’ll pop into my head later. Oh here is something I can put so people won’t get confused anymore
Main Entry: 1ex•cuse
Pronunciation: ..ik-ˈskyüz, imperatively often ˈskyüz..
Function: transitive verb
Inflected Form(s): ex•cused; ex•cus•ing
Etymology: Middle English, from Anglo-French escuser, excuser, from Latin excusare,ex- + causa cause, explanation from
Date: 13th century
1 a : to make apology for b : to try to remove blame from
2 : to forgive entirely or disregard as of trivial import : regard as excusable ..excused his tardiness>
3 a : to grant exemption or release to ..excused from jury duty> b : to allow to leave
4 : to serve as excuse for : justify ..
Main Entry: 1rea•son
Pronunciation: ..ˈrē-zən..
Function: noun
Etymology: Middle English resoun, from Anglo-French raisun, from Latin ration-, ratioreri to calculate, think; probably akin to Gothic rathjo reason, computation, from account, explanation
Date: 13th century
1 a : a statement offered in explanation or justification ..s that were quite satisfactory>b : a rational ground or motive c : a sufficient ground of explanation or of logical defense; especially : something (as a principle or law) that supports a conclusion or explains a fact ..s behind her client’s action> d : the thing that makes some fact intelligible : cause .. ..
2 a (1) : the power of comprehending, inferring, or thinking especially in orderly rational ways : intelligence (2) : proper exercise of the mind (3) : sanity b : the sum of the intellectual powers
3 archaic : treatment that affords satisfaction
no one can say I didn’t do anything for them in life…and this should help someone I haven’t spoken to in 48hrs as well as they seem to be confused by the two like many others. It’s sad watching people I know NOT be where they should be in life or going where they should go because of excuses that they say are reasons. Since I was a child I’ve literally watched people wither away and die as they lead themselves there with excuses and it seems that is a fate I cannot escape. Where does this come from? what prevents these people from having the will power to just push forward? is life really easier to get through this way? or do they trick themselves into thinking it is? Oh and here for others
Main Entry: hear
Pronunciation: ..ˈhir..
Function: verb
Inflected Form(s): heard ..ˈhərd..; hear•ing ..ˈhir-iŋ..
Etymology: Middle English heren, from Old English hīeran; akin to Old High German hōren to hear, and probably to Latin cavēre to be on guard, Greek akouein to hear
Date: before 12th century
transitive verb 1 : to perceive or apprehend by the ear
2 : to gain knowledge of by hearing
3 a : to listen to with attention : heed b : attend ..
4 a : to give a legal hearing to b : to take testimony from ..intransitive verb 1 : to have the capacity of apprehending sound
2 a : to gain information : learn b : to receive communication ..heard from her lately>
3 : to entertain the idea —used in the negative ..
4 —often used in the expression Hear! Hear! to express approval (as during a speech)
— hear•er ..ˈhir-ər.. noun
Main Entry: 1lis•ten
Pronunciation: ..ˈli-sən..
Function: verb
Inflected Form(s): lis•tened; lis•ten•ing ..ˈlis-niŋ, ˈli-sən-iŋ..
Etymology: Middle English listnen, from Old English hlysnan; akin to Sanskrit śroṣati he hears, Old English hlūd loud
Date: before 12th century
transitive verb archaic : to give ear to : hearintransitive verb 1 : to pay attention to sound ..
2 : to hear something with thoughtful attention : give consideration ..
3 : to be alert to catch an expected sound ..
— lis•ten•er ..ˈlis-nər, ˈli-sən-ər.. noun
yes they are different sorry…so now when someone says “your listening to what I’m saying but your not hearing what I’m saying” you all know what they mean. Something else I’m curious about is why do people always ask of others what they cannot give themselves, yet, somehow find the right to be upset when it is not given to them…isn’t that a form of hypocrasy or am I wrong…naw I’m never wrong it is lol. Alot of single women I know, the more I get to know them the more I understand why they are single and understand that when they aren’t single anymore they are going to have to settle…why? because the way they are the energy in life won’t allow them anything BUT that. Also I realize that some REAL women I know that are single are stuck at an impasse just like me….be part of this little game, or not, and being single and keeping to themselves they obviously chose NOT and were born at the wrong time like myself. Being a Pisces everyone knows that is the thinking, kinky sign of the zodiac and yes, I used to have the 3sum fantasy like most guys and now even that is gone because, maybe because I have a brain, I just can’t f**k a gal with no brain…for god’s sake I’ve BARELY been able to f**k the excuse making gals I have over the last year’s of my life..and plus why would I do two gals who don’t deserve it a favor by giving them good d**k outside of those evil lil stat numbers fems have to deal with? Well if social cycle theory applies then men and women used to be abundant as did morals and scrupals, work ethic and ambition, respect and loyalty, good cooking and food, actions and words matching etc then this is the age where it lacks and me and every male and female like me will be at an impasse till it cycles around again. Welp gni everyone
p.s shit I never remembered what I was gonna say in that one part lol..oh but don’t even let me get started on how “word is bond” isn’t worth a damn either…or the word “friend” or “love” maybe another time…
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